Sunday, July 11, 2010

Decision

Man it is late. I'm so tired. I've spent the last five days pretty much away from home: some nights at friend's houses, one at my girlfriend's, I even slept on a park bench last night, after telling mom I was at Gabe's for the night...but it hasn't helped. My sleeping has been sporadic and brief; I keep waking up, scared half to death. I know what I've done for the last five days, but I don't remember any of the details. And I'm getting paranoid, I keep looking over my shoulder, thinking I see Him, running like mad when I think I do. And the dreams. No, The Dream, it has become so vivid I can make out individual splinters as the wood gives way and explodes in the heat and flame. That's what woke me up just now. I'm at my house again, but I don't remember coming here...but I know I came under way own will.

I'm leaving tomorrow. I've made up my mind. Just staying away from the house won't work, I've got to get out of this town. I don't know where to go, exactly, I don't know how I'll survive exactly. But I won't just walk into His arms, I won't just lay down and accept defeat. I'll run. I'm leaving tomorrow, after mom's gone to work.

I'm scared, but I can't see any other way out of this...I don't know whether I'll post here anymore, but I will if I can.

Goodbye, at least for now.
-Anthony

8 comments:

  1. Fool. DoN't run. You will Only ESCalate things. You're not A survivalist, you're not PreparEd to be on You're Own, yoU're not even very athletic! TruSt me, I know what I'm talking about. You don't nOn of you do! Stay home, stay there, stay, stay, stay staystaystay STAY!

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  2. O.K., this is ridiculous, now you're just being a troll. What is with you? Why are you doing this? It's not funny.

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  3. Troll? I'm offended, why would you call me, your dear "dead" brother, something so degrading?

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  4. What!? Alright, that's too far. Your not fucking funny! Why the hell are you doing this!? It's an insult. Your not even a good troll. Get the hell off this blog!

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  5. You don't believe me? Why? Have I ever lied to you, on this forum? No matter, you'll find out soon enough, for yourself. When you open your door.

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  6. Well.
    Creepiest troll I've seen yet.

    .___.

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  7. Andrew had Capital letters. No Escape. I've seen this before in other encounters. He Knows.

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